In reading the book, I am challenged to look for the every day blessings in my life… choosing to be thankful in all circumstances. That being said, I have a long way to go. I also have another book that I’m reading along side of One Thousand Gifts. It is called The Practice of the Presence of God. Very challenging as Brother Lawrence encourages us to always be in conversation with God at every moment of the day. “… he feared nothing, desiring only one thing of God – that he might not offend Him. He said he carried no guilt. ‘When I fail in my duty, I readily acknowledge it, saying, I am used to do so. I shall never do otherwise if I am left to myself. If I fail not, then I give God thanks acknowledging that it comes from Him.'”
Yesterday was not the best day for me. I really struggled with discontentment from the moment I woke up. All morning I had a woe-is-me attitude. I knew this was wrong & that I was not being thankful, yet I couldn’t snap out of it. Even though I felt like a failure, I cried out to God, begging for Him to change my heart & renew my mind (Romans 12:2). I kept my thoughts to myself & continued to go about the day as planned… homeschooling, providing meals, doing laundry. I reached out to my husband & friends asking them for prayer. Shortly after lunch something changed. No doubt it was the result of all the prayers sent on my behalf. As I was outside kicking around a soccer ball with my toddler, God showed me how much He loves me. A year ago, having the same struggles would have pushed me to find comfort from my discontent in food or entertainment. Today, I cried out to God & asked for help. I didn’t try to deal with it all on my own. He showed me that it’s not so much the struggle I need to focus on, but what he is doing in me that is important.
Was it all sunshine & roses after that? No. I went back into the house with dishes piled on the counter, books & crumbs from lunch on the table, toys scattered on the floor, & I found thanks. Thanks in what He is doing in my heart. Thanks in the choices we have made for our family. Thanks in my circumstances. I found peace & joy… even though I didn’t want to do the dishes. 🙂